Russia X Reader: Kiss It All Better

With a choked off sob, Ivan lay on his bed, searing tears running down his face as he stared up at the dark ceiling above him. The room around him was dark and silent as death. He closed his eyes and placed an arm over his eyes, trying to ward off the scene that kept replaying in his mind.

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Ivan stood silently as he waited in the park where he had promised to meet you the day before. Your cheerful grin and sparkling (e/c) eyes made it next to impossible for him to say no. It was a surprisingly warm and sunny day though dark clouds could be seen on the far away horizon. He looked down at his watch and checked the time. It was eleven forty five, and you were running late. He stuck his hands in his pockets trying to push away his mild annoyance with you and looked into the heavens.

A shout from nearby pulled him back down to earth, and he looked towards the shout. You were jogging over to where he was standing, face flushed from running most likely. Ivan couldn't help but let a small smile creep onto his face, seeing you in your disheveled state.

"I'm so sorry I'm late Ivan! I got held up along the way," you huffed as you got closer to him.

"I assumed that ___ had gotten into some sort of trouble," Ivan chuckled happily as you came to a stop right in front of him.

You looked up into his violet eyes and smiled widely, "I'm glad you waited for me though!" you reached forward and grabbed his hand, causing the tall Russian man to freeze from the sudden contact.

His face flushed ever so slightly but he allowed himself to be pulled along after you. Giggling, you led him through the park and to a large tree that stood at the center of it. You pulled excitedly on his arm as you got closer to it and looked back at him. He had broken out of his stupor by then and was able to smile down at you.

"I wanted to show you my most favorite spot in the whole world!" you said as you continued to drag him towards the tree. You let go of his hand to dart ahead of him to the other side of he tree, only to peek back at him when he took to long to get over to where you were.

He rounded the corner only to gasp in amazement. A large square garden was behind the tree and it was filled with huge sunflowers, almost taller than himself. His mouth hung open as he looked at them and then back down to you. You still had the rosy tint to your cheeks, but it was darker than it should have been normally, he noted as you stared up at him with a hopeful expression.

"I heard that you liked sunflowers as much as I do from someone, and I figured, why not share it with you!" you hurried out as you turned to look back at the mammoth sunflowers.

Ivan stood in awe of the moment before he managed to find his words again, "Yes, I do love sunflowers. I thank you."

This time your face had really visibly darkened as you smiled up at him, "Though that isn't the only reason I asked you to come out here."

Ivan tilted his head to one side questioningly, but his heart skipped a beat. You took his actions as encouragement to continue.

"We've known each other for who knows how long but I'm grateful to have met you. But there's something that I've wanted to tell you-" but Ivan cut you off.

"W-Wait, _-___. Before you say the thing you want to say let me confess something."

Your mouth opened in a small o-shape as you looked at him, his face was now a light pink and he covered his mouth and nose with his signature scarf. He turned slightly away from you to look at the sunflowers next to him before he looked back at you. A beam of sunlight had managed to weave its way through the tree canopy above the both of you and land directly on you and he lost his train of thought as he stared at you. Your (h/c) hair glowed in an almost heavenly light and your (e/c) eyes sparkled above your semi-flushed cheeks.

After a few seconds he reclaimed his thoughts and he turned back to look at you, "____, I know you probably don't feel the same about me, but- I love you. I have since the moment I met you all those years ago."

Your faced flushed a dark red and your hands flew up to your mouth and your eyes widened, Ivan looked down and laughed quietly. He took this a a bad reaction and turned to leave.

"Wait! Ivan! I-I lo-lo- I love you too!" Ivan froze in his tracks and turned to look back at you. Your hands were clasped to your chest and you were now fully standing in the sunbeam, glowing. He felt his cheeks flush and he turned around fully to look at you and a smile bloomed upon his lips.

You smiled back at him, and he he took a step towards you. But when he did he saw a flash of silver raised up by his side and the crack as the gun was fired at you. Ivan watched in horror as you jerked back in slow motion from the impact of the bullet and out of the sunbeam, giving a soft oh as it pierced your body. You crumpled backwards slowly onto the grass beneath your feet, and Ivan barely heard the retreating footsteps behind him as he rushed forward dropping to the ground next to you.

"____! Can you hear me?!" He asked, only for you to not answer and only then did he notice the red rose blooming upon your chest. "_-___! Stay with me! Answer me!"

"I-Ivan-" you whispered out softly, looking up at him through half closed eyes. You reached up slowly to brush your hand against his cheek, wiping away tears that were starting to pour from his eyes. He reached up with one of his hands to place it over yours as he looked down into your pain glazed eyes.

"I-Ivan, kiss it all better." you whispered again. "I'm not- ready to go."

Ivan choked back a sob, "I'm so sorry! P-Please forgive me! I didn't-"

You smiled weakly, "It's not your fault love, you didn't know."

You sighed lightly and your eyes fluttered shut, "You didn't know."

Fresh tears ran down Ivan's cheeks as he he watched in horror as your head rolled to the side limply as he held you in his arms.

"_-___?" He asked shaking you, but you lolled in his arms. "____! Stay with me!" He cried as he buried his head into your neck, sobbing.

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Thunder rumbled from the heavens as Ivan finally returned to the world. He was stiff from leaning over you, and his tears had long since dried and his eyes were red and puffy. He sat up and cradled you in his arms though you were cold to the touch and no signs of life were visible.

A flash from the sky and a peal of lightning cracked across the sky as the heavens began to cry. The rain drops pattered noisily around Ivan as he dry sobbed into your shoulder again whispering your name. Another crack of lightning caused something on the ground not too far away from Ivan to shine and catch his eye.

A small silver hand gun.

A wicked smile ripped its way onto his face as he realized what he needed to do. He leaned into lightly peck your cold forehead.

"Everything will be alright," he murmured as he buried his face into your semi-wet hair.

'I'll avenge my love tonight'

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Ivan's footsteps echoed in the hallway as he walked to the slightly opened door at the end of it. Rough voices and laughing could be heard coming from the end of it. As he got closer he could hear some of the conversations inside.

"You should have seen the look on her face. It was amazing! Nothing could have ever matched up with it! It was even better that her boyfriend was there to watch her get shot!" A chorus of laughter rang out at the end of the speakers story, and Ivan had now arrived at the door. He took a breath before he kicked the door open as hard as he could. It flew opened and slammed into the wall and broke from its hinges. The laughter died as soon as they heard the slam from the door and turned to peer at it.

"H-Hey! You're that slut's boyfriend!" A man shouted from his perch on one of the many tables that were scattered around the small room in front of a window. "Come to give me back my gun, have you?"

Ivan grinned devilishly, and reached into his pocket to pull the gun out. With deliberate slowness, he lifted it up to point it at the man. The man paled, "H-Hey now! Put that thing down!" with a smooth motion, Ivan shoved the gun back into his pocket and pulled a loose water pipe that was laying nearby and smashed it into the head of the nearest guy, which crunched under the weight of the blow, spraying blood.

The room went deathly silent as Ivan pulled his weapon from the dead man's head. Then the room burst into a flurry of activity as the men jumped up from their seats and rushed Ivan. He grinned even wider as he began to swing the pipe with ease, hitting each person he laid eyes on.

After a few minutes he had crushed the skull of the last man, he turned to look at the man who had killed his love. He was still sitting on the table and he was white as a ghost, with a few flecks of blood on his face. Ivan slowly walked over to the man, who was now backing up against the window and shaking in fear.

Ivan pulled out the gun again, "This is yours, da?"

The man looked into the silver-black eye of the gun and back to the blood splattered face of the wielder. Ivan started to laugh and he pulled the trigger just as another crack of lightning pealed across the window behind him. The man slumped forward and Ivan cast the gun onto his corpse. He chuckled darkly as he picked his way through the carnage and back down the hall, the bloody water pipe dragging behind him.

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Ivan dropped the pipe onto the wooden floor of his room and it clanked noisily as it bounced off of the floor. Not even bothering to remove his blood stained clothes, he flopped onto his bed. He flipped onto his back and stared at the darkened ceiling. His last happy moment with you replayed in his head as he lay still. Then searing tears began to flow from his eyes, running red onto his pillow.

"____, stay with me." he whispered through the tears. "Stay with me, until I fall asleep."

A warm sensation touched his eye lids and they began to feel too heavy to keep open, he tried to but failed

"Stay with me."